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That Deafening Silence

The sun has set comfortably as I pulled the car from the garage. The wind blew softly. Just the right amount of humidity. Songs played in the background, check. Let the songs dominate the indoor scene inside my car, check.

Now, let the eyes be entertained by the surrounding scenery. The well designed house and building, the random architecture of these malls, the various faces of everyday people minding their own business. The trees are as green as ever.

That self-inducing pleasant feeling that somehow emerges.

The shadow of the tree above falls, reflected to the windshield. The blue sky and the clouds completed the afternoon view.

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  • Femme: Tu sais la différence entre...
  • Homme: Oui, ma puce?
  • Femme: La différence entre être tombé amoureuse et être entichée?
  • Homme: C'est difficile, ma puce. Il faut qu'on essaie tous les deux. Et bienqu'on les essaie, c'est encore difficile à expliquer.
  • Femme: Pourquoi? Peux-tu m'expliquer ce que l'amour veut dire?
  • Homme: Eh bien, c'est aussi trop facile de dire ca. Quand on parle de sentiments, meme les mots ne suffissent pas du tout. Y'a pas de mots, ma puce, qui peut exactement expliquer l'amour, amoureux, et entiché.
  • Femme: C'est si compliqué?
  • Homme: Trop compliqué, on peut pas mettre, ou bien choisir des mots. Je pense que tous les mots on connait sont une représentative du sentiment quoi, une expression de colère, d'amour, de malheur, de bonheur, de tous. Chaque mot on choisit décrit un sentiment inexplicable, ma puce.
  • Femme: Il me semble que tu connais bien ces sentiments inexplicables.
  • Homme: Tu m'as demandé quelle est la différence entre être tombé amoureux et être entiché tout à l'heure, ma puce?
  • Femme: Oui.
  • Homme: Moi, j'étais entiché de toi. Moi, je suis tombé amoureux de toi. L'amour est toi. Et toi, ma puce éternelle, es-tu entichée ou tombée amoureuse? Peux-tu m'expliquer?
#amour   #monolog   #soliloquy   #love   #feelings   #you  
 

White Blanket

You know why I’m not a fan of beaches? It’s because I made direct contact with sunlight for as long as I can remember. Because I gazed upon its blinding lights for million times. Because I’ve felt its scorching hotness. Because I’ve walked under it long enough. Because it’s too hot to handle, because it makes me feel thirsty. Because everybody would be sweating like a pig as it increases its temperature.

Because it way passed warm, it has reached its point. Because I need to feel new and fresh breeze.

Because I love autumn. Because I love watching the falling leaves. Because I love seeing how they change their colors, because they turn to a new set of wonderful colors. Because I love the in between warm and cold the autumn gives. Because I love the sense of reminiscing old flames. Because I love the nostalgia ambience it causes. Because I want to feel its warmth and fuzzy effects.

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#snow   #autumn   #winter   #feelings  
 
  • Him: Hey.
  • Her: Hey.
  • Him: You uhm..., you look gorgeous today.
  • Her: Thanks. You look good today, the cold's gone?
  • Him: Yeah. My girlfriend--she uhm...
  • Her: Good to hear that. You should keep her, she sounds like a nice girl.
  • Him: If you say so.
  • […]
  • Him: So what's up with us?
  • Her: Us? What about us?
  • Him: How come one day we're all chatty and touchy and flirty and the next day we're a complete stranger to each other?
  • Her: I don't know. Maybe because some days you're all caught up and stressed out, I don't want to bother you. And then there's me all confused and in a bad mood and I just want to be left alone.
  • Him: Guess you're right.
  • Her: Do you want this-whatever we have, to end? Cause I don't.
  • Him: Never.
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